Oh well... I tried

I truly believe it's time to go back into the shell that I have. Being open works to a point, but then I just get rejected and people act like nothing happened. Maybe the people that are close to me really don't want me to open up to them or really don't want to be close to me. Maybe my life is just to be there and help them. It really seems like every time I truly open up and start letting people see who I am and what I like, they start to pull away and I end up alone and questioning life again. The best course of action might be to just stay in my shell and never open up. It might be the only way to actually date a girl and try to move on with my life.